Thursday’s Thread

For years my husband and I have been taking broken things and making them new.
But even when I was younger I felt banded together with brokenness, somehow drawn to it.  I’m not exactly sure where this came from, I suppose it’s the brokenness that I’ve always felt fastened to; a deep desire within to restore something back to its intended purpose. It’s the same reason many years ago when a sweet older lady Billi  gave me an antique teacup with a chip in it, I treasured it. She told me it was a reminder that everyone carries around some cracks and brokenness within them.

This was a marker of discovering my brokenness with new eyes…It had always been with me I was just scared to uncover it. A deep seeded fear that if I exposed my brokenness others would see it and deem me somehow less valuable
….that I’d end up being tossed aside.

We see our brokenness as a place of rejection rather than a place where love is embraced.

It’s happening right now as I walk through this year of losses.
As the grief rises to the surface I try to snuff it out feeling like it’s been long enough that I should be over it by now. But the triggers pass through my hands as one holiday leads to another and I am reminded of the losses daily.
Grieving how time has changed is a starting point to look into our losses.
Every reminder is an opportunity to break vulnerability wide open even with the risk of being found out.

I often wonder…
What if I didn’t shudder at its presence and withdraw?
What if I looked at brokenness as a way to my Father’s love & healing?
Brokenness becomes a way to God’s loving restoration rather than a place for fear.

Billi’s words were ringing in my ears….she didn’t want me to know I was broken but that my road through brokenness was to my Father’s loving arms.
Wow, yes brokenness reminds us of our need for a Savior.
What if we didn’t live our days afraid of exposure, fearing where we are shattered and splintered, trying to hide the ugliness of our brokenness?

So much brokenness inside the walls of every home…in the ministry we often get invited into other’s tender spaces of their hearts and sometimes it’s more than I can bear. My heart hurts with them and I so just want to stop the bleeding. But I am finding these days sometimes the bleeding slows down from just my presence….just in the showing up. Last night I was reminded of this as we split God’s word wide opened and traveled through its pages, so much wealth exists in one book. 
A statement was shared and it cut deep within my own hurt…

‘Sometimes as Christians we have to believe for others what is too hard for them to believe on their own.’

Yep friend this is where its at. 
Sometimes there’s so much hurt oozing from our heart we miss the opportunity to enter into another’s brokenness and show them God’s faithfulness. 
Perhaps their hearts are just needing to be massaged with the love of our heavenly Father.
Oh friends, if only we could see brokenness through the lens of our Father’s eyes who sees it as an opportunity instead of a place of shame or division. 

Just like Joe and I love broken things, we even go to great lengths searching for these treasures, so does our heavenly Father. He sometimes travels long and exhausting roads in  pursuit of us to make us new!
The same exhilarating feeling we get when we discover something placed upon a shelf and give it re-new-ed purpose
—>God feels this too when one of us who are broken surrenders to His healing and restoration.

Our purpose gets birthed through brokenness!

My friend, Billi is gone and I may have failed to let her know how valuable her words were that day, in fact I’d do anything to get a day, a conversation back with her and tell her the impact her words and life had on me. For when she spoke her goodness over me I was so covered up in brokenness. I was the one who woke up with shame and went to bed with even more as my broken edges cut the ones closest to me. I wandered through my days striving more than receiving and yet crawled into bed every night and cried myself to sleep. You see brokenness has a way of speaking lies over us when God is trying to tell us how much He loves us. Billi had a way with her presence, it was in hers I felt truly seen and loved. That was God using her to remind me of His love. For God truly loves the brokenhearted and desires them to be brought back to life.

This is what God did with His very own Son….
His love got split wide open for us…broken to be made new.

I sometimes wonder why I shudder at my brokenness rather than seeing it as an opportunity for my story to be told…a place for restoration…there’s no better brokenness to tell the story of Jesus’ love in our lives than the remnant of our brokenness that lies beneath our skin for it’s here God’s imprint on our lives is seen for our wounds become His story of love and restoration.   

Thursday’s Thread

As we recently drove all over the coast of Maine where I grew up, I thought about how impactful ONE decision can be in one’s life.

Years ago I knew my life wasn’t headed in the right direction.
There was too much brokenness needing a whole lot of healing more than I’d found.
I longed for relief from the pain that was pooling deep within…some people really never find the healing their hearts are looking for…I wondered where I’d end up in it all.

My husband leaned over as we were making our way toward Boston we were both stealing glimpses of the colorful trees out the window, who were giving us a sneak peek of their fall foliage. My husband thoughtfully apologized for stealing me away from the beauty of this place I once called home. What he didn’t realize was if he hadn’t found me thirty some years ago wandering through life I wouldn’t have been given the life I now have.
The chance to live free… to break out of the cocoon I had wound myself in, sheltering my heart from any additional pain.

Funny how our lives crashing into one another back then eventually became the wholehearted healing I was needing. The ministry God called me to was the very thing God used to draw me closer to Him.

Not all brokenness curses us for a lifetime sometimes it’s just for a season that we limp.

That ONE decision I made to follow God’s leading so long ago bumped me straight into the one I gave my love to for a lifetime doing what I love.  

When all this happened my life was in such a shattered mess…the numbing of pain, the days striving for approval and scrubbing away any hint of abuse, feeling so used up and believing lies I was nothing special, always hiding in the shadow and never feeling seen.
A lonely girl who longed to be found while all the time I didn’t know what my life really needed.

Not sure how quickly a life gets off course but thankful God’s able and willing to redirect us.

Honestly though it wasn’t God I was looking to find me…I had grandeur hopes of being discovered.

Don’t we all down deep long to become known.
Perhaps someone would see there was something more beautiful underneath all the mess I was lugging around….

Why do we have such a hard time believing in our worth?
I suppose we’re afraid there’s not enough of it to go around.

I was a young, insecure soul craving affection…desiring to be known and seen by others.
I can remember seeking attention for just the right look or approval.
While all the while God knew me so well and continued dropping crumbs to lead me to Him.
I was convinced He wouldn’t be enough to fill the bottomless cavern that was swelling deep within the inner walls of my chest…

I wondered what it’d take to fill my unending longings.
I begged Him to not lead me to a man, I needed healing from the brokenness several men had caused and I never imagined entrusting my heart to another.

But He tenderly whispered into my ear one day…. 
‘It’s him I’m giving you to heal the wounds which lay within your brokenness.’

You see every one of us needs to feel the power of love….God-size love that is!
And God knew my life needed to feel what love handed down from Him was like.

His Manna from Heaven!

I‘d already experienced the counterfeit kind-of-love….a seemingly small touch stolen without my permission….a dirty thing the enemy calls ‘love’ was not what God intended for me.
He had so much more for my life.

As He does for yours!

So, sisters whether you’re young or greater in daysknow God’s love can never be exchanged for something temporary or something taken without your giving.
A guy who leads you to anything other than the love of Christ is offering something that will quickly fade away.
Your heart was tenderly handcrafted by a loving God who made it for Him to embody and then to be shared with another. 

My husband’s apology that day didn’t find a home in my heart for it was through my leaving of this beautiful state I was able to have my life restored.
It was through the traveling down this road that I was able to be found by a loving God who is healing me and making me whole.

Friend, if your life feels like its traveling in circles and its got you wondering if you’ve been passed by or somehow been forgotten-
Know the God of this Universe who skillfully and wonderfully designed you made you on purpose for a purpose!
In His economy- every life matters!
Seek Him first sweet one..follow after His desires and in the process your heart will become satisfied. 

At just four years old a piece of mine was stripped and torn away.
We find this kind of brokenness when we are just living our ordinary lives in any given county or state. The boundary of land doesn’t make it’s choosing. 
Mine occurred in the walls of our home by a trusted individual. 

This pressure that causes a soul to finally bust can be different for each of us but the shattering of it occurs much of the same. 

The blessing of it all is my memory of this actual event lies below.
I have no memory of the details of its abuse but only the clean up that came from that day.
What beauty I’m able to find today within this memory comes as I think about how our God is a God who is all about the process of restoring the pain that our lives have a way of enduring. 
Many of us can sometimes wear our brokenness as a badge of honor, rather than seek for it’s healing. 
But brokenness is often how God is able to break through one’s soul…its here where He does the restoring of our souls. 

For there is nothing too big, too lost, too far gone for Him to make new and bring back to Him.
He longs for every soul to find it’s healing and worth!
And the road to this healing has no expiration
You see, reconciliation is God’s reason for sending His Son, it’s His greatest gift to us that often occurs through the pain of our brokenness.

Friend, the journey back to Him is a sweet one that reminds us of our deepest need for Him as our soul finds complete rest in His care! 

Thursday’s Thread

The Preacher said it one Sunday morning like it was something you hear every day. My mind keeps grabbing his statement as my chest wrestles with it’s truth and it find its way into every corner of my life and conversation over tables with the breaking of bread and sharing of souls.

Although the preacher continually speaks truth into my life he also happens to be the one I’ve vowed my love to. His words have a mysterious way of making me think….simple yet deep.

He said…

‘The children of Israel needed their own experience with God, they couldn’t rely upon their parents’ God-experience of the parting of the Red Sea without God giving them a faith experience of their own…’

When I was 6 years old we moved to Maine. I grew up in Maine always knowing about God but not really knowing Him.

My parents became Christians when I was around 10 years old. As I grew up my faith wasn’t grounded in seeing God work through my own life. Instead I often saw where God wasn’t active where I felt a void, instead of where He all along was crafting opportunities for me to see glimpses of Him. I can remember when I was in my early twenties and I began recognizing Him powerfully working in and around me. My parent’s conversion wasn’t enough for my faith to grow. Like the children of Israel I needed my own faith journey for me to really know God.

What about you? Do you feel restless in your life? Wondering if God sees you and really knows you? Do you often feel like He’s your parents long time friend?

But friend, God is for you-He’s not just the God of our ancestors. He’s a personal God here for us!

Just 40 years before Joshua and his army had their own experience of parting waters- their parents, grandparents and families would have seen the waters of the Red Sea climb up to the sky and be held back by God for them to cross. And just years later God declared another rolling back of waters to allow their kids to KNOW God and be KNOWN by God.

So many times I’ve tried to feed my children MY experiences with God but…..

Oh God come and let them live through a faith of their own!! For a shared faith with you God is one that lasts! It’s one in which we stand firm upon for a lifetime.

So as we pray for our children navigating them through our prayers of safety. May we pray bigger prayers for them to see God. Let us not mince our words asking God only for their protection but give God space to usher waves of His grace into their lives.

As I sit by the ocean this beautiful autumn day in Maine…with the wind blowing my hair off to the side and as the smell of salt water is lining my nostrils one can recognize that the beauty of the ocean is not found in the smallness of waves but in the growing of their size as they fall. To know our God held back their strength not only for a nation’s safety but for a nations children’s faith.

You see we don’t see the power of our God in places of safety but in the midst of travesty and trials.

What hard is knocking on your door these days?

What pain seems to much to bear?

Know the God who held back hallways of water holds them back for us as well!

And for our sons & daughters they may have to suffer in order to know Him, their struggles are not in vain. None of our hardships ever get wasted by Him. We’re made richer through our pain. For it’s in these times we are able to see our need for God.

The giant steps I’m leaning on today lead into a vast deep ocean which have were handcrafted by a loving God who kindly chiseled them out for our feet to look upon His greatness.

God has sweetly carved Himself into our world and desires to do the same upon our hearts.

And we can rest knowing….within our children’s brokenness & hard they’ll find their Father calling them nearer!

Thursday’s Thread

When we started this thing almost thirty years ago I was dragging around a bag full of regret and pain. I had no idea what life was like without it strapped onto my back. It came with me everywhere I went. It was full of what I wish I hadn’t done & what I could have done better…..I thought it was how life was supposed to be.

I said ‘I’m sorry’ so many times a day I couldn’t have collected them all. I was sorry for just about everything under the sun, passing around apologies hoping to relieve a bit of the guilt that was piled up within. I didn’t know it wasn’t mine to hold onto.

It wasn’t until I began living free in the arms of God’s grace that I was able to shed responsibilities I never was meant to own.

We don’t have time to pick up what was never intended for us to haul around. Our lives have a purpose far more impactful than bathing in regretfulness.

As we drive down the road today headed toward all God has laid before us I can openly say-I’m not lugging around regret.

How did I get here from there?

Well I must say there’s been a lot of letting go mixed in with a whole lot of receiving of the goodness of God.

I remember the day like it was yesterday when I was sitting one leg tucked under another while my other leg was swung over the arm of the overstuffed chair in my son’s bedroom. We were opening up our hearts that day letting our wounds kind of spill out when the words seemed to be building up ever so much. They were dammed up in the center of my chest as I was trying to make sense of them all in my head before I let them gush forth. Finally when I couldn’t hold them back any longer I spoke aloud…’You know for far too long I expected perfection when I should have taught you to live in the rhythms of God’s grace…I’m sorry bud, I didn’t know but now I’m learning it myself. You see God doesn’t work with equations. It’s not the ‘if…then’ I’ve been preaching to you all these years. You see God is so much deeper than that. He cares about the inner beating of our heart more than our outward actions. I know we’ve read this in His word a million times but somehow between reading it and believing it- it got complicated. I guess what I’m trying to say is I’m still learning this thing so I’m sorry if I’ve somehow scrambled up His sweet message of grace.’

And you know what happened when I let this wild thing spew out of my lungs it somehow began flooding my life with some of His deep soul healing. Somehow the truth God intended to set me free with got spun into a tangled mess of lies when in God there’s no room for regret.

“Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret…..”

‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭7:10‬ ‭

Now we’re driving down this road twenty some years later looking through the window ahead not feeling the need to glance in the mirror of regret. God’s removed the urge to spend my days glancing at the past -He keeps directing my eyes to what lays ahead.

When we choose to let Him have and heal our brokenness we live life in a w-holy place.

So sweet Mommas as fast as transition seems to be coming down our roads choose not to live them smothered in regret but live them free in the grace He has for us.

We can get further & further down the road full of regret and miss what He designed for us.

Our road ahead will be just as dear as the one we’ve traveled. The memories we’ve made so far will get sifted through grace and will all be made perfectly beautiful in His time….living backwards from today will never get us to the blessings of tomorrow.

So if you’re like me leaving the days with your arms full of kids or you’re right in the middle of the crazy of it all- stay in the moment and risk all you have to do the something bigger He’s calling you to. And in the process we will all get a little closer to Jesus!

Thursday’s Thread

If our home could speak it would tell you stories of hard, loving imperfection.
You see it’s in our imperfections we see our desperate need for a Heavenly Father, when we have nothing left to reach for but the grace of God.
As memories are running rapidly through my thoughts these days…as beds lay empty and rooms are all too quiet, I have a lot of time to ponder the full days of the past.

Our dinner table brings back so many memories of shared meals and conversations that have overflowed with laughter and hardship. My husband built our table in our first year of marriage, it cost $60 to build…$60 I’d spend over and over again to have the gift of its conversations.
It was the first thing he built for our home. I had no idea the rich and sacred conversations that would be shared around it. Conversations of faith, wrestlings and decisions as our sons studied their way to the waters of the baptistery around this table…decisions to not give up but to continue on.
Oh and the laughter and fighting that has settled around the edges of this table all hold our secrets and our pain as well. Days where courage and faith have been chosen in spite of deep brokenness and pain that found its way into our home. Around this table as high chairs met its edge the memorization of God’s word began. Never realizing the depth of decisions it would fight for one day. 

It was Thanksgiving break.
We had one son newly married, another son just arrived home from West Point where he had just begun his second year, a son who was a Senior in High School and a son who was in the eighth grade.
My life felt as full as the table I set.
I loved having them all home, but trying to find unity in the diversity of paths they were traveling-I felt a bit undone.
My son who was attending the military academy came home from a rigorous environment that often caused him to return home  quite bound up. It often took him more days then he was allotted to unwind and the process was a bit taxing on every one of us. The newly weds were still adjusting while attending their last semester of college while the senior in high school was seeking God’s direction for his life and the eighth grader was enjoying his freedom in the mix.
As we circled around our Thanksgiving feast my husband called them to all pause for a moment.
One of the boys piped up with, ‘please tell me we aren’t going to do that thankful thing’. I exhaled a sigh, thinking ‘really, isn’t there blessings upon blessings you can recount with us?’ All the kids laughed in his response and it took some moments to gather their attention once again.
Our new daughter in law piped up with a list of her blessings, striving to regain some sense of order. Hoping for the others to follow suit, we continued prepping the conversation. After many foolish responses said in laughter we made it to one more blessing given by our oldest son striving to set an example for his younger siblings but to my growing frustration it only caused more jokes to flow. Finally in exhaustion I said ‘I can’t even have my Norman Rockwell Thanksgiving I’ve always wanted’ and just as those words left my weary lips through tears I laughed realizing that’s just what we had. Norman Rockwell one of my favorite artists who depicts common day life in a satirical style couldn’t have painted a better picture of Thanksgiving dinner than this.
So you wouldn’t be surprised our Christmas card that year held a similar picture as we tried multiple times to get everyone to cooperate for a picture that communicated ‘peace and joy’. After much ado I finally decided on this pose to show what really happens when our family tries to capture a photograph.

I was surprised by the responses we received that year to our Christmas card they were greater than any other year. You see it wasn’t another pose of our family being happy instead you’d see a Mom reaching for some sense of order and yet finding I had no control in my grasp.

Isn’t this where God does His greatest work?
When we release the messes we have and we trust solely in Him? 

When I was a younger Mom in the ‘then’ of our lives as our four sons were continually searching for adventure I’d sink into bed every night from the pure exhaustion of corralling them. I hoped the words I had often fumbled my days through along with my mess-ups and mistakes would somehow get righted on Heaven’s doing.
And as I am sitting in the ‘now’ of our lives I can tell you my sweet younger sisters, God somehow graciously did this for me.
I am no different than you…tired yet striving for God’s best for our families, praying courageous prayers to break generational sin that seems to be biting our heels all too often and just begging God for all of this He’s entrusted to us will all turn out okay. 

Trust me younger sisters He’s got you as He so sweetly has me!
The God of Heaven is holding you and sees you…you do not travel this road on your own…He is accompanying  you on this journey and He-will-see-you-through. 

Seek Him first, trust Him (even more than yourself) and pray hard!

The God of Heaven has you…He’s fighting for you, for your sons and for your daughters and He will see you through the ‘then’s’ all the way to the ‘now’s’!

From a broken sister a few steps ahead of you on this path, God can be trusted.
As I ponder through the past and recount His faithfulness to us, may I encourage you to stack rocks of His merciful faithfulness to you-
marking His kindness throughout your parenting
….it will fill your memories with His grace and mercy in the days to come. 

Thursday’s Thread

Why do we live like there’s only so much beauty, creativity or talent to go around?

God made this universe with an infinite amount of it all and yet we often hold back speaking kind words, afraid if we pass it out it might mean there’s less to go around…
That perhaps one day we will be in need and we’ll find an empty bucket rather than a full one.
It’s funny how scarcity experienced in one small space of our heart can overflow into every arena of our lives.
We learn this at a young age!

I remember trying to crash in on my brother and sister’s birthdays, they were one day apart and mine was stuck in a month of its own. 
I mean after all who really likes watching someone else get the big gift, the special attention, the birthday hugs with the pretty cake? 

Even as adults we struggle with this. 
I’ve seen parents standing on the sidelines thinking it was their sporting event. Yelling at their sons and daughters to do what their deep soul was ‘needing’ them to accomplish. Sometimes we have a hard time living out our own lives so we live them through our kids. I’ve watched parents knock down and yell for their significance, shouting words they wouldn’t ever get back. 

It really doesn’t matter what age we are…there’s always the chance we will exchange our identity for someone else. We become identity thefts at best.

I’ve seen it happen more than once the louder we are the more attention we’ll get…sadly it’s not always the looks we were hoping for.

I left the stadium once sick to my stomach knowing the boy down on the field hadn’t heard the last of how he missed a pass or messed up… because his Dad was looking for his own worth in his son’s performance.

If only we could live our lives with a little bit of truth etched upon our arm daily reminding us-we are more than enough!

There’s never too many pictures to adorn, or headlines to read, never enough pages written or stories to impart.
Because in our vast and endless world there’s never too many amazing people to celebrate…each one made and designed with their very own fingerprint to leave upon this world. 

When we live our lives where there’s more than enough room at the table, we live like God intended for us.
Each note gets played because the one He meant to play it,
is given their chance.

True harmony of souls happens when we celebrate one another rather than trying to steal the show. 

So friends, reach into the lives you pass every day and share your table long enough to learn how to celebrate one another.
It’s in these beautiful spaces we learn to dance to a rhythm of someone else! 

Because people can too quickly forget that there’s more than enough to pass around and plenty of people needing you to beat the drum for them. 

Sadly we’re often too busy looking in the mirror of not enough we miss counting off our blessings.

Because a quick glance in the mirror has a way of telling a woman she isn’t enough…pretty enough, trim enough and all the other ‘enough’s’ we foolishly accept. 

You know there’s plenty of Mothers tooting their child’s horn making sure they’re seen in a class of their own. 
We must stop brewing this message. 
They need to hear there’s more than enough to go around.
I’ve never seen so many people liking so many people’s stories as there are today.  

When we list out our blessings and count them day by day we speak the truth that there’s more than enough to go around again and again.

Eventually I grew up and learned my birthday coming once a year was more than enough for me to celebrate…

If we will just look around & live our lives out of a place of abundance we’ll find ourselves breathing out a whole lot more gratitude and praise. 

Friends may we enlarge our circles and spend our days celebrating those around us…inviting, multiplying and spreading what we’ve been entrusted with!

Thursday’s Thread

Sometimes it’s hard to hear a voice that  cuts deep into our habits but if we’ll listen it can often be the very thing that consecrates the depths of our souls.

I came face to face with this when my oldest son was around 18 months old.
A good friend who was walking through infertility warned me of how I was holding onto my toddler like there was no tomorrow.

Justin, my son was incredibly shy and didn’t like leaving my side and to make matters worse I was struggling through the ache of multiple miscarriages. By this time I had experienced two and was on medicine in hopes to prevent any further ones from occuring. (Unknown to me just weeks later I would miscarry once again)

My friend looked me square in the face and told me she thought I was holding onto Justin tighter every time I lost a baby…
Ouch, not what you want to hear in the middle of loss, but it was sadly true.

Sometimes this kind of insight hurts more because we know the truth of the words spoken.

I remember barely responding loud enough for her to pick up on my words as I told her she was probably right. I was holding on tighter to him with every loss I was somehow hoping to heal my deep wound.

In the days following this incident I began trying to loosen my grip on his little self bit by bit. It was interesting the more I let go of my son, the further he traveled from my knees and
the more independent he became.

The nonverbal messages we communicate to our kids, even our toddlers can cause them to think we can’t survive without them when this is our moment to lean into God more. 

As I experienced yet another miscarriage soon after this, I remember holding my friend’s warning close, knowing my son’s need for me wouldn’t ever be able to heal my busted up heart…

Loss has a way of causing us to gasp for air before we reach for the oxygen God has for us. As I began to let go of Justin and let him be the child he was created to be and took my aching heart to God I began to find the healing I needed. Sometimes we go to others when our heart is in need of a healing only God can bring

Eventually my story took a hope filled turn as I got pregnant again, although I miscarried the baby’s twin God blessed with another healthy son, in fact He blessed us with four boys in all. Its crazy how such gifts could come from such a difficult time but God has a way of doing the unthinkable!

It was in these years God first began teaching me the beauty of releasing our sons.

And the lessons continued to come whether they came when the boys were learning to walk, heading to Kindergarten or going into their middle school or High School years. At each bend in the road God seemed to be calling me to loosen my grip and entrust them to Him

Now as we stand smack in the middle of a new transition with our youngest son beginning his first year at college (two states away) and having 4 sons in 4 states (KY, IN, MO and one in Alaska), I can see God’s hand helping me release each one of our kids little by little every year….continually letting go of them and trusting God in every release.
For within every transition there is loss...whether it’s the loss a new mother feels when her baby is born and she’s no longer pregnant, or the transition of watching a child move from the awkward stages of middle school to applying for college.
All of these changes bring a loss of what life was and yet they bring something new as well. 

It’s when we are able to grieve our loss
and look for the blessings within the new beginnings that we are able to find peace within our days.
Some losses though are hard to see past like the death of a loved one or the loss of a dream that accompanies singleness or even the devastation of betrayal. And yet even inside the hurt of these losses there is hope
and healing that makes us stronger for the days of transition ahead. 

Pain has a way of giving us a’ve probably seen this on the news when a brave soul speaks through their pain and a story unfolds from one side of the country to the other or maybe you’ve experienced the open ears of friends who are hushed by the hard days you’re living in. Struggles have a way of gathering crowds and allowing the ones in the middle of it to be heard….the depth of pain, the louder a voice can be heard. 

God has a way of allowing nothing in our lives to be wasted, not even our pain. 

As the power of our ministry is often tried in the crucible of pain its also here where our ministries get birthed. 

Although so many of us Mommas would rather cuddle up with our kids and get lost within the throngs of Disney movies this is not what God designed us or our children for.

Friend, this is not what our children were made forthey were made like us to further the Kingdom.

Our children have been given a purpose of their own to thrive in.

We are their Momma’s their greatest cheerleaders, whether they’re in our presence or apart from us. 

Our kids will not grow into the courageous young people God intends for them to be to impact our world if we don’t freely release them. 

There is beauty watching our sons & daughters grow into godly adults who do crazy awesome things for the furthering of the gospel!

So let us let go knowing we are letting them go and live out the calling that is upon their life and may we enjoy watching them live this out well!

As we stand upon the porches of our homes waving good bye to these amazing kids God has allowed us to nurture and grow may we graciously release them back to God’s work as Hannah released Samuel and as Moses’ Mom released him.
Mothers have been releasing sons and daughters for years, in fact you are one who was released. 

So sweet Mommas as your heart aches for the days of the past know you have played a pivotal role in the story of God for this generation and generations to come-we are making history as we let go of our children and entrust them in the capable hands of our heavenly Father!