This Christmas is one I’ll count as special for years to come.
It marks many beautiful moments.
It’s funny how hard things in life can cause you to count your blessings every day a whole lot more.
Joe and I couldn’t have been happier to have everyone home yesterday.
Today we got to spend five wonderful hours together.
We haven’t gotten to have everyone home together for three years and it was as good as life gets.
Even the crazy conversations at the dinner table that always seem to happen, the many wrestling matches and even the wild nerf attacks
– all of it was just like I expected.
It wasn’t this way for years though.
Because I wasted a lot of years striving for something that wasn’t real.
For many years my disappointed expectations led to many tears.
And it wasn’t because of anyone else.
Honestly, it was because of my unrealistic expectations of what I thought we needed to be.
You see, I thought we were supposed to be a perfect version of what we see all over our social media feeds.
But the more I arrived for some imperfect version of this the more I failed.
And the truth is I no longer find myself wanting this any more…
Because, this family I’ve been given is real and I wouldn’t change it for anything in this world.
I’m a real mom who’s sensitive at times and who often can say the wrong things at the wrong times.
This past year has taken a lot from us and it has asked more of us then you could imagine.
And yet it’s also given us more than we ever hoped it would.
It’s taught us being real can be excruciating at times but it’s also how a beating heart experiences the depth of love.
And friend, this makes the hard of being real worth it.
So, this day looks a bit like this most times we get together for a family photo
but we all love it and that’s what makes being real so good.
Merry Christmas to you all and a happy New Year from our beautiful messy family to yours . . . ♥️